Zhenya's face broke out, the hint of a laugh there. She felt better when she smiled, but she didn't do it much anymore. "Lose control? Wild?" she glanced around, "Uh yeah I think that's definitely what happened." She couldn't stop herself from tucking the sheet back into the bed, after pulling it off. It didn't phase her as much wearing her underwear in front of him, it was better than being naked, right? But still, she was very self-conscious.
She reached for her purse, which he had summoned, and opened it. "Ah it's here, thank Merlin," she said, utterly relieved. She was very fond of her second wand, after they were unable to rescue her first one. "Thanks," she said to Gary, looking at him.
What does this mean?
Her smile faltered and she looked down at her toes, painted red. She swallowed. No, Zhenya, don't be quiet. Not now. You can be quiet later, she told herself. "I don't suppose you have something I can wear?" she asked. She didn't fancy having THIS conversation in her underwear. She didn't mind that Gary was topless.
Deep breath.
"What do you want it to mean, Gary?" she asked, almost whispering. Her heart was definitely racing, and she was feeling sick. Not from the hangover, she knew, but from anticipation. No, Zhenya. YOU speak first! She nodded to herself, then looked into his eyes. She needed to say this. She'd been thinking it for years. "I don't really expect you to forgive me after what I did, but what I said last night is true. I still love you." she shrugged, "I never stopped." It was true. All these years. Always.
"I want to spend my life with you Gerald Alexander Rush. My life has felt… incomplete without you. When we were together, we were teenagers but you already felt like a big part of me. You were like… like the daredevil inside me, you were the outgoing side of me, the confidence within me. I'm not saying I haven't changed, I have, but when I saw you at the reunion yesterday something felt… it felt like something clicked inside," she spoke. It wasn't supposed to be a gushy romantic speech, but the truth. She was speaking from the heart. She was opening her heart to the man she loved, which also meant she was opening herself up for heartbreak. BUT if that's what he wanted, to part ways, then she would respect that. But she really hoped he didn't want to part ways.